Failure in expressing feelings...

Ok to start it off I had a Great 23 rd April ... and I mean really great!!!!

This I am writing just to shatter the delusions one may build on reading this post...

Why I had a great day yesterday well the answer to that is quite simple it was the birthday of my most favourite teacher Soumya Roy or simply put Roy Sir as many of us know him.... What made this day special was the completion of my film appreciation project and though I am pretty sure that I will flunk in my HR exam but that's ok I was never good in the management of Human Resource(hope you get the pun), also I would like to say this officially I care a damn about any subject teacher who gives a damn about the jargon of that subject rather than the principles and theories of that subject when put in a simple language!! But that grudge against the education will come out some other day I guess I hope not because if it does, then Mahabharata will look like a pocket book. xP

Film appreciation project I was very upbeat in my own way about this project because for the first time in my life I was going to do something that I really feel passion for Write well I haven't yet official Sang except in school which never counts ... also I skipped the project submission date and submitted my 6 credits assignment 2 days later but I guess it was well worth it and surely not copy pasted :)

I would really like to mention two of my friends here Ayan Saxena and Pratik Modi its is because of the time spent with them that I now have the confidence to submit a project late and still make it better than others at least IMHO and to me that only matters :) prior to this I would have made shite assignment n submitted on the due date but no more no more deceits at least to yourself.

I screwed up my paper but I was like its ok Who the hell gives a F xD and I was really building up on huge guilt because I did not call Roy sir last night and didn't even texted him this morning in the crash course studying scenario... so I text him I don't even know if it reached him the sun was scorching and the wind were dehydrating so I went back to my Insti. Building, there I noticed a gathering of Few juniors and some decoration and then a figure which no tainted and frosted glass can make me fail to recognise it. Roy Sir. Now the first thing that I wanted to do was go inside and touch his feet and just wish him.. wish I had been so carefree but I am not. =(

Then those juniors all of you I love you for giving a great teacher a nice day :)

but I hope you could also give him also some space so that few folks who prefer the invisibility cloak like me could go and wish him and talk to him and could have just afford to have few more dearly cherished memories of him(I maybe hiding the fact that I wanted to show him my Project and get his valuable inputs)... that said I still wouldn't have amassed enough strength to wish him because of the guilt of not wishing him in person and thooo wishing him using a 60 paisa SmS. Anyway what's the use I'm like that and forever have been like that I cannot express my feelings in person...

This is not the first time it happens time and again I cannot tell my father how much I love .. I especially miss those days when as a kid I used to bring pillow for him after he used to come tired from office so that he could just lie down for a few minutes and sit on his back and talk to him.. with Ma even though we are so close but in my mood swings I shut her completely and especially when I am doing some crappy project, I know how much listening my voice comforts her... aaaargh if I write about my sis I am pretty sure I am gonna thrash the monitor and prior to it the mood of this blog. I would also like to mention Tejas and Udhav here sorry folks due to projects I have completely shut you all. but enough!!!

What Roy sir mean to me is something that no language has words to describe and I know Sir that you don't really like the flavour of things that I write but still I am a bit melancholic I guess, Anyway the junior posted a snap of him with them last night "To Sir with Love" is says but I know that the word betrays the feeling that they want to say.

Sir you along with Deshmukh Sir have given to me a perception towards life the whole world talks a lot about stretching beyond the limits an thinking out of box, but out of those millions only the two of you have ever appreciated it.. and I know You can never be far away from me.. because inside this Pratik Sahu is a Soumya Roy and you have not only given us a way but you have also foretold us the demons of life and I sincerely hope all of your student be true to themselves and to you.Especially me. As to expressing my feelings part I guess the written words is my forte. You are one of those teacher with home I feel myself totally and you classes are till date a joy. Wishing you a comfortable and peaceful life with many student for I know you love toying with young minds. :)

Roy Sir is just not a teacher he is miracle worker he has brought the plights of us students and given them the ray of a new dawn. To dedicate my first blog is just my luck!!

As for you all I did wish him in front of juniors yea they didn't leave him and yea I did made an ass out of me there too but its fun making an ass out of yourself in fronts of Roy Sir!!!

Roy Sir Roy Sir,

To know you is pleasure.

To have a memory of you is treasure,

my happiness cannot be measured.

for I have been taught not by a teacher but by the Kaiser.

PS Juniors no hard feelings for you just I am plain jealous of you!! =)